You’ve worked so hard to become the man you thought you were supposed to be.
Husband
Provider
Leader
The one who takes responsibility…
The one who stands tall.
The one who makes decisions.
You put on the costume of proper behavior and masculine expectations.
You follow societies rules…
And you promised her everything a husband is supposed to promise
You tried your best…
You wanted to be dependable.
You wanted to provide.
You tried to lead…
But nothing about that role has ever felt natural.
Time and time again, you failed.
Every time she points out a flaw
Something twists inside you.
When you become the bad husband
She nags constantly
Trying to transform you into someone you cannot become.
When she scolds
It strikes to vulnerabilities that you’d never dare let her see
She only speaks to a part of you
That already doubts yourself
You’re exhausted
You’re not shaped for leadership
Your instincts move in another direction entirely
You need someone to follow
You breathe easier when someone else decides
You feel calmer when direction is given instead of demanded
Following comes naturally to you
You need a woman to take control
Your marriage has always been fake because it never matched the way your heart is built
She wants a man that takes charge
But you need someone that takes control
